- Only the fucking diary makes me happy -

2011 2011

2011-11-20T03:49:00.000-08:00

i really dunno whats wrong with me...all my friend gone 1 by 1..am i that so fuck up or so disgusts to be friend with? what happen to u all? why every1 wanna abandon me and boycott me..? finally i know that im choose to go oversea is not the wrong choice..maybe will find my new way instead of staying here..well..i wont hate u all, i will wish u all good luck..真的是没有东西或人值得让我留念!

13/11/11

2011-11-13T04:36:00.001-08:00

LOLz...hahx...surpriseeeee :) hhax..long time didnt on my blog:)..updating now..xixi..
i used to love blogging.. but now..hhax..feels like not that active anymore. cause what? hahah..i duno..just being busy this 2 year. and slower n slower i lost my motivation to blogging ...well..now im back..but not go for everyday anymore..just feeling wanan to blogging today. thats it..

hmmm..my life? hoho..ntg special..just tired bout grabbing myself into a blackhole../ u can meant it as grab a hole n grave myself..hhax,.
hmmm..study? nope..still going on..graduate soon.. and yup..cont. study again...but might not in malaysia..hhax..
hmmm..socialize? nope..getting lesser n lesser friend's now...hhax..well..is not im weak on socialize ..but just dun like to feel it that way..however, i still having my good bro.beside me :) is not that important having any more..depends on the friendship :)
hmm...something thats it...ntg so happening in mylife..hhax...

good luck everyone..a good blast for you all

1/9/2011

2011-09-01T06:22:00.001-07:00

i think i should stop thinking about have a chance to be with her..impossible ..i should be single for the rest of my life..for my own good and for everyone that may be with me...should stop thinking that i need to have a relationship..hardworking for my future, money is much more important than everything.. with alots of money i will live happy than having a relationship..i rather choose without love and happiness. i choose become rich..more secure if im rich.. but not poor and with everything..useless!!!!!!!!..is not realistic..as i say a brand new day will start on today..i will totally change my mind set..fuck u jazz...and im JAZZ for now...

1/9/2011

2011-08-31T13:19:00.000-07:00

knowing you is my pleasure, knowing you is my honor, knowing you is my everything. didnt expect for future and everything, just wanna a simple life with you. is my fault to argue with you, sorry. but i love you. wont giving you up, until the day u disappear in mylife. but i hope wouldnt have this day arrived. just keep being this complicated relationship with you..im happy for all of the thing that u do for me and the thing that you try to do for me as well. a simple 3 words i really need to tell you, which is I LOVE YOU. :)

dunno what to say.

2011-07-06T09:52:00.001-07:00

jazz- fuck urself..why r u so stupid so fucktard..ur stupid attitude is so annoying..can u just change it..always create trouble for someone always create the problem..what do u want? somemore u r so emotional. can u stop it? pls la wei..why do u want me to fuck u every time..pls la..change it ok..no one will like this attitude de..include urself..u doesnt like this also right..change it pls..

28/6/2011

2011-06-28T05:14:00.000-07:00

hmmm...tuesday...@.@...ntg special, but to me im satisfied to having this kind of life..although do ntg for the whole day, finding my love 1 to have lunch and dinner everyday is the most happiest thing to me. but the fucking assignment make me worry bout it..arghh..cant even focus or spend sometime for it..i really wanna die...t.t..IDUN1 to retake ahhh..t.t...fuck....hmmm..2 weeks more..havent done anything..JAZZ..what the fuck is u doing..???plssssszzzzz la...stay focus.....AMEN...!!!...

26 june 2011

2011-06-26T05:57:00.000-07:00

hmmpp...@.@..shit.nearly exam, dunno what to do ..@.@..feels like a lots of thing havent done yet.. hmmpp..but is ok..everything will be fine cause she's around me. i feel relax and comfort. although something happen on yesterday, but i know what should do and what shouldnt do..we need sometime to get all of this done la..however a year promises, i will try my best of the best to make you happy.

14 june 2011

2011-06-13T09:55:00.000-07:00

10 more day consider we have been together for a month.and this few weeks im happy to be with her. although quite fast to fall in love to her, sounds unbelievable, but is true. i really love her.我是一个对感情很认真很快爱上也很快投入感情的人. our relationship is kind of complicated. but nvm, we are happy for now. no one knows what will happen in the next, being happy is the 1st priority. suddenly today i have a thought, i scared she wont accept this thought. but atlast i still discuss with her bout this. i said, how about we being like this for a year, In the presence of give yourself a chance and give me a chance too. and she reply yes i do. in that moment im fucking happy and feel happiness. i wont regret to know u and love u. i wont lie to u for sure, i will never lie to u. promise is the promise.time will prove everything.

My angel..

2011-06-12T04:47:00.000-07:00

the day that i met her is 21 of april 2011. kind of weird and flower heart feels. but seriously im not that kind of people. why i said weird and flower itis because the day i met another girl is on 21st of april. im fall in love to this girl, but at last i found out that im falling in love to this angel. and the another girl is just confusing and kind of desperate in love. but now i found out i do really love this angel.she r the most caring girl which i met. she r most active girl that i met and the best forever. the day when i confess to her is 24th of may. she r so beautiful, Not just her heart or the appearance of she looks like. she is so pretty so good. today is 12 of june. i met her not more than 2 month. but i ady crazy in love to her. i dun mind to do anything even everything for her. i just love her so much. i have no expect any return, even i know we have no happy ending, but i still hope that we will have this day. the day we love each other. i know u just fucking love ur ex. but i will wait til the day that i can fully replace him. i know i can. i know just need some time. i know is the timing not good. just hope u happy forever, and happy and happy forever. final wish is wish u happy everyday. just stay happy happy happy and happy.

Thx for everyone who visit my blog.

2011-06-10T22:42:00.000-07:00

im not a good blogger and im not often update my blog. today i just sign in and saw my beloved frens n visitor left some comment to me..is kind of surprise..thx for u guys support and caring..thx alots.. wish u all happy forever and smile always ya..a BIG BIG smile to u all :)..

14/5/2010

2011-05-13T11:34:00.000-07:00

in the midnight of friday, but today consider sat ady..^^..hahax..sitting at mcd..ntg to do..just feel like wanna to come out..then come out lo..@.@..i like to chat tot myself..hahx...other ppl sure think that im crazy..ya..i am crazy...hahax..~~..cause too boring ah..xixi..LOL..stupid jazz..really stupid..wahkaka...

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ok..stop nonsense..back to the topic..i hate ppl like to create rumors... hate it..why ppl like to say something that is not true, something that is nonsense without any benefit to itself? haiz..anything can be happen..the world is so 'dark'..why i can live in a peaceful place? with ppl who r kind.@.@..

12/5/2011

2011-05-12T08:02:00.000-07:00

@.@..hmm..ntg special ..just feel like wanna to write blog only..^^..when i can get a group of english communicate frens?just wish that i have a group frens..@.@..i just crazy in english...hahx..love english so much..mylife= english..hahx..joke..although not a joke..but is a joke..^^..seriously.!!..hhahx..

today- 9/5/2011

2011-05-09T03:51:00.000-07:00

@.@..ntg happen and nothing further is going on..just same as usual, texting someone and thats all. @.@...as i posted on my fb..''i dunno when is the day come and dunno when its end..just stay calm to wait the day arrive''. while waiting there is ntg that i can do..besides wait just wait..XD..hahx..i know what it type is kind of rubbish..XD..but who cares..im enjoy..stop fucking me and said dun post stupid status on wall..now im not..im posting my blog..so shut ur bloody mouth. i dun 1 to hear anymore..i do what i like..

18/3/2011

2011-04-18T07:29:00.000-07:00

hmm...sometimes i really cant sense something. my sense is quite obtuse, or somehow sense wrong thing. erm..what i mean is i keep catching wrong feels by someone. but however, is a good start la. i will try to be patience and dun walk too fast. be stable and try to take chance..@.@..im bluring now..dunno what to say about it. she is quite friendly, and this time i have a feel again, but dunno am i feels right. hope this time have a good ending.
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Amen!

LOVE.

2011-04-16T22:47:00.000-07:00

..after saw this movie i just know my love is cant compare with the real love. <单身男女〉 the story talk about 2 boys loving a girl in the same time. 2 of them using alots of idea to make this girl happy. a guy very rich and with flower heart, who the 1 the girl love the most, but the girl doesnt wanna to be with this guy, cause the girl thought she can find a guy that wont ever guilty to her. in the same time the other guy appear. he also loving this girl many years ago, and he the 1 who keep cheer her up behind it. he is a so nice guy and give every care to her. this is a love story, is very touched story. the idea the action they took, let me feel happy and joyful, is very touched. we should learn something from this 2 guy.

Confusing...

2011-04-16T21:05:00.000-07:00

hmmm..O.o..feeling like fall in love with some one, but feels like we have a distance. i dunno are we close, when i think deeply, definitely we r not close. just call once awhile, mesg once awhile, mostly is chatting on msn,or fb. sometimes when heard she said emoing , or up-sad, i feels like a knife inserted into my chest.i will followed unhappily..however, i didnt think too much, just be as usually fren, cause i know that well, is not gona we work with me and she. just hope she r happy, although im just a passing guy or a man that can accompany her, and im satisfy with that.

we should stand up for ur own right to feel your pain.XD

2011-04-08T06:42:00.000-07:00

“People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great love is, but that's bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they're afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they're wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It's all in how you carry it. That's what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you're letting society destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to feel your pain.”

fucking emo moody script..DUN fuck see this blog..

2011-04-08T06:32:00.000-07:00

haiz..here again..just wanna post some stupid comment over my blog..+ they wont come here to see also..quite free to write anything here...fuck them..i dunno who r them i dunno what they said..i duno what they want..just fuck them..all of them..i just feel i have no mood to go college at all...just wanna speed up my speed to graduate...as fast as possible..i wont go turn my head anymore..just leave all of them behind..i wont care wont ask wont care anymore..what kind of person i am? let u all to play to judge like stupid to fool around? sorry la..you all doesnt know much about me..so what ? for the pass 1 and a half year..rubbish la..u dunno who am i ..u dunno my characteristic at all..fuck you all..is not important that who am i to u all is important that who i am, know what im doing that;s enuf. fuck hell ya..

damn u all la...

2011-03-29T10:33:00.000-07:00

recently i get alot of complain behind me...haiz...i can feel something also..dunno what happen also..why suka suka at belakang orang cakap hal yang buruk? i have ntg wrong..but i think something wrong to u all lo...haiz...girl really is 8 poh lo...~.~..so sad la..after heard this..damn hurt...i didnt do anything wrong didnt speak something that hurt u all..but why leH? dun so childish la..a branch of kiddo.

my quotes..XD

2011-03-28T07:39:00.000-07:00

1)如果回到从前，你会做什么？我还是会走回一样的道路，但是这次不同，把走过的道路，把它走宽些，好让后面的人好走!

2)who care you, you are nobody but you are somebody. no 1 care you, but im here. im the 1 who willing spend my time to care about you. so..pls smile..XD : ) the world will change if you reconsider who am i..XD

3)do you recognize the road that you had passed thru?
do you remember who you had talked with?
do you remember the last hand that u holding with?
pls do remember everything in ur life. is valuable memory.

4)雨从天而降，嘀嗒嘀嗒的打在路上，散处的水花，真是好看呐！虽然只是普通的雨，但，当你细心的看，它并不平凡，因为当你觉得它不平凡的那一刻，那么你就走到了另一个境界！别人不知，只有你能察觉!

5)a hurricane will arrive in every moment, when you dun appreciate what you have now, you will be nothing, no one will know when is the next hurricane arrived. pls do appreciate and cherish it.. : )

经历与看透了一切..XD

2011-03-25T11:27:00.000-07:00

1) if some 1 make u understand about what is appreciate, then u are the luckiest person on the world..XD..be strong and be independent. appreciate ur life..XD..is valuable.

2)一天一大笑好比一天一滴泪，为何还要流泪..: ) 生活最重要就是开心！..XD..加油的开心活下去..

3)一个人的俊和美不是像外表的如此，打从心底的笑才是最美丽的一面..XD

4)开心里头吃了多少的苦头有谁知，但只要有信念，开心的活着就是成功的一半了..XD 吃的苦多没关系，最终是开心就能盖阔所有的悲伤..XD..

emo..XD

2011-03-22T11:07:00.000-07:00

1) 一天一天累计的累，疲倦，伤心，失望和情绪都不知该往哪儿发泄！只好把生活过得充实，繁忙点，至少还能帮助一点点！: )

2)经过一次一次的波浪，是时候把自己的尊严，脾气放下！最后也许可以得到更多的东西，或能得到你最想要的最珍贵的一份情感!! : )

3)如果一瓶酒一份感情就能忘记，那么生活有多好! 如果生活里只有17个小时有多好？睡觉吃饭做工，那么就没那么多时间想不该想的事情..: )

4)一路走来经过那么多事情，把这份经历这份心情好好的储藏在心底！别忘记这份经历，因为是胜过百万，它是无价的.
: )

5)把手放开把心里打开，不开心的事就如洗菜一样，不新鲜的菜，有虫的菜就要把它选出，虽然那些菜是很有营养很丰富，但是它毕竟是过去的事情，丢了吧！把开心的事，完美新鲜的菜收起来！好好珍惜剩下的菜，那是你唯有，也是你唯一的！
: )

6)身上的伤痕就像你经历的一切，每一道疤痕都有自己的故事，疤痕虽然不好看，别人也不会欣赏，但别理会！因为只有你才清楚每一道疤痕，每份情感和故事！得空时好好的留意自己的疤痕，它会令你变得坚强，让你更有信心的走下你还没走完的道路..: ) 别介意，加油吧!

7)喜欢拍照吗？喜欢的很好，但别把它用在不好的地方！别只爱拿相机，试下放手被人拿相机，让人拍拍自己的样子，自己的一切，别太过小看自己！有时你看了自己的照片你会觉得自己其实很有魅力很活泼，很有自信的！相信自己！试下让人拍你吧! : )

8)先接受自己，先懂得看自己的好，先懂得了解自己! 那么什么事你都会看得是美的！..: )

9)‎- something we cant control dun too care, we must learn how to accept. is hard to control feeling especially some1 that beside u had pass away. try to accept the fact, and give a space and time to urself.. u r not live because or urself, is becoz of every1 and ur family and ur lover. the world is balance, u cant stand by ur own, so pls do respect urself and others, live healthy and think healthy. : )

6/2/2011

2011-02-05T23:52:00.000-08:00

yoohh....finally back from langkawi...XD..hhax..this few day cant on9..now at airport on9ing for few hours...wooohohooo..shuang...hhax..hmm..this few day..play ntg much..just play jet-ski..quite shuang yi xia..but..damn expansive lo..30minit. 100 bucks...isshhh...kill me...then alots more didnt play also..then..for the meal..lunch and dinner also ok lor..all around 230++..expansive also..ishh..faint...luckily not my money..wohhooo...XDD..happy new year trip..hhax..

31/1/2011

2011-01-30T12:23:00.000-08:00

morning just some sharing to my friend who r viewing...this is what i shared on fb (today im satisfy..XD i have a good talk with my bro..XD..special night...im really happy with it. to my fren..pls do communicate with ur family while ur family still here..appreciate what u have now..not regret when is too late...time is not a excuse..try to spend some time to ur family...u will be change alots..be happy ..and forever..) family is important ...everything must be appreciated..felt enough waht u have now..however..im really happy and satisfy..i love u my family..forever.. especially my bro..u r changed..i love u..

29/1/2011

2011-01-29T02:28:00.001-08:00

hmmm@.@..today saturday ...last day also wanna go coll..@.@

arhghhh///kisiao ady la me...i miss the feeling ..the feel that i hug..the way i treat ..the 1 that i care..the thing that i like..the thing that make me smile,fun and laugh..@@..i miss this life...who can give me those life..@.@..im not desperate ..but im feel lonely..@.@..isshh..dunno what nonsense im talking about..hhax..bla bla///

28/1/2011

2011-01-28T04:34:00.001-08:00

today slp late liao..@.@..ko liao...5 alarm..but i close liao duno..@.@..haiz..but nvm..my college is damn free ..XD..so freedom geh..hhax..then lunch have pizza..XD..then wail till 5 only back home..then this period im lepak sini and sana..XD..so free..be geh bo..XD..hhax..lalala..@.@.. omg...2 more day to suff internet....ahhhhhh..my life..@.@..shiittt...haiz..still need to do homework..wth..@.@...isshh...preparing exam while im in the new year mood..chech...haiz..

27/1/2011

2011-01-27T03:02:00.001-08:00

@.@...omg..yesterday didnt eat dinner till morning..@.@..then afternoob only eat my (dinbrunch)...@.@ LOL..XD..hhax..today morning at coll busy till evening 5pm only free..@.@..back home 6 then bla bla bla + bath till 7..@>@...hungry again...luckily today mummy cook at home...wakakka..XD..long time didnt eat my mum cook geh dish liao..Xd happy..muacks..@...xixi..

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aduuii///just saw my fren blog..2.@..she kisiao 1..XD..everyday dream artist de..@.@..so geng 1..@.@..can always dream all leng zai..hahx..really 38..XD

26/1/2011 night

2011-01-26T04:08:00.000-08:00

after class..@.@..yo...i had design a light..although outlook not nice la..every body also say that ugly..@.@..but is ok..however im using hard to do geh..really hardworking geh...luckily my lecturer say good also..XD..hahx..happy..dun care ppl thinking or talking..did what i have done then enuf liao..xD..weee..XD

26/1/2011

2011-01-25T04:12:00.000-08:00

Xd..today went to coll..but going there just like didnt go also..XD..do abit homework then lepak lepak..XD..9.30 class..reach around 10..then wait 1 pm go have lunch.XD..wahhkaka..then go back lepak abit then go back home le..@.@
..then it ends up my day..XD..so wasted..XD..

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i know is kind of weird..XD..ppls writing their blog so colourful so nice ..XD..but mine hahx..actually im writing diary..XD..is all about my feel..XD..

25/1/2011

2011-01-24T10:59:00.000-08:00

waoo..@.@..so fast ady year 2011...@.@. im still standing on this position..nothing much changed..@.@..so long didnt open up my blogger to update..XD..kind a sorry to my blog..hhax..previously i pay so much attention for this blog..now i just stop at here..hhax..hmm..recently feel losing something..i think i found that ..XD..that is start write my blog from this sec..XD..nyahha..gogo jazz..XD..u can do it..无可否认 this is the place where i can encourage myself and express my emotion and my happiness..Xd...no other way..i love to type rather than speak out..bla bla bla bla bla..XD..dunno what to say..hhax..so messy ..bla bla blaaaaaaa.. :)

New vacation house ..^^

2010-04-07T04:34:00.001-07:00

selling RM 10 million.

and this..is our model design..^^

2010-04-07T04:25:00.000-07:00

Wuuuhuu...^^..NEW DESIGN...(Environment Study..)

2010-04-07T04:21:00.000-07:00

this is our broucher..^^...

God..pls help me and give a direction..what should i do now? pls give me a solution...

2010-04-05T08:23:00.000-07:00

Hey, recently I really feel stress. Rushing assignment, scared cant finish all the assignment. Sigh..Already many days didn’t sleep well. Not just that I’m feeling pressure on the assignment, but also scared about I’m going to the wrong direction. Am I suitable for this line? Is it hard working = graduate successful? Can I stay in design line and won’t be eliminate in design line? I’m afraid to continue further more. I can’t really see clearly in my future. Is blur.. haiz..So far I’m not regret coming in this line, yet I’m interested on it. For now what I’m worry about is I scared to step further and furthest.. I had lost my direction, I have nothing to encourage and motivate me. Every single work I done I have no confidence, and I have a doubt in my work. This is how I get stress …t.t..Stress stress stress..i having stress.~~

upsad...happy...relax...sweet...sleepy time...XD..^^

2010-03-10T08:46:00.000-08:00

assignmen day. hate assignment. 3 day didnt sleep ady..t.t.. this 3 day is just like stay in the hell..doesnt live like normal life ..eat my branch at 3 pm and 2 am have my lanner..i just pass this kind of life 3 day..phew...finally today i can sleep well without any stress and can be relax ady. but sweet dream is no longer going..one month later have finally assessment..t.t..so..need to rush again..t.t..what i know is..after i step in this I.D line..i have no break time..what i have is just busy tiring and cant sleep well^^..that;s all..haiz..but i didnt regret it..cause i have a nice classmate..and also met alots of fren..i have their support..i wont fall down so easily^^..thx alots..

Star Planet...^^

2010-03-06T09:45:00.000-08:00

wao..i love it..WONG TZE WAH's COMEDY TALK SHOW...i went 6 of march 2010...8.pm...at arena of stars-genting highland...RM155...he is so sute so funny and also have a sense of humour..^^..wao..laugh till stomachache..^^..hhhax...if who missed it..kesian la..if have a chance..go watch this show..^^..if not..go youtube find also can...hhax..

NEW photo taking by huan shyan..^^..

2010-03-03T20:17:00.000-08:00

love those photo^^..hhax..nice..i love it..hhax..give some comment ya^^

>.<..New YeaR is end around the corner..

2010-02-22T05:08:00.000-08:00

boring new year, lazy day feeling sleepy is just suitable for the new year.>.< haiz..no place to go no place to hang out no place to play..somemore holiday end and passup assignment test coming..haiz..everything need to prepare..t.t but i do ntg within this holiday...hahx..just watch old movie at home, sleep , dreaming ..hhax..^^..sad...is time to end my dream and start to concentrate on my study..

lucky lucky lucky day....~.~.

2010-01-30T07:05:00.000-08:00

speechless...haiz...1st time continuously 2 day accident...Thursday kena langgar kereta..haiz..ady very bad luck..shitt///today..Saturday..kena rompak..fuckk.....money and phone..shittt la..stupid malay...malay useless la...shitt....haiz...fucker...2nd time ady...haiz...ntg to say ady,,sad...no mood...t.t..

who the bullshit...

2010-01-19T01:15:00.000-08:00

hell la...kiss ur own ass ok..damn u..who the hell u think u are..go tell the story to ur father lah...AMEN....dun simply build a story to everyone...if u build story to other ok la..dun let us know ..ok..??stioll want to exaggerate it..bullshit...u nuts...

NIce MOVIE..~~MUST WATCH!!

2010-01-17T20:19:00.000-08:00

waoo...i love this movie...but aiyoo..having 2nd part...no ending..t.t...sad..>.<...but however...this is a good movie..gogogo..!!..GO !..^^...

MOVIE..!!>.<

2010-01-17T20:15:00.000-08:00

hey..guys...this movie is damn funny..u can have a watch of this movie..tiger woo hoo...^^

xixi~~...SEM 1

2010-01-12T04:05:00.001-08:00

aiyoo..~~...so miss this photo tim^^..xixi...captured when we are in sem 1..^^..happy nia..

long time didnt update my blog timm^^..

2010-01-12T03:53:00.000-08:00

hmm..recently really tired ...something keep annoyed me..my fren something else also..haiz..my fren aiyoo...recently some fren keep pointing me..so sad...haiz..dun understanding me at all...hate it la..haiz...busy life ..feel tiring..upsad...and also lazy...but..however..still have somthing to make me feel excited and bring me alots of happiness..new sem ..haiz.aiyo...getting more tougher..t.t..sad....

just fuck off la..

2009-12-30T08:16:00.000-08:00

eh..i tot we r bro so we know what we r thinking..so eh..do u know how to give some space to me..? u all just piss me off only..eh..recently i really no time u know? my secondary school mate have a gathering on 29th..i also cant attend leh..not i dun 1 to go but i really busy recently...what u guys think u r? ehh..not u all free then i must attend de wo..i know u guys had been help me alots of thing but..1 think u must think carefully.. isit i always like that? am i always fong fei gei..or didnt attend the date? use ur brain think carefully la..previously i always free then did u guys come out ?eh..dude..every ppl have a busy time..and now..is my turn..do i say anything previously.?? today..just go back and think nicely lah..dun say those word like a kid la? how old r u jor? 20 la?next year 21 la..dun pretend like a kid la..dun keep fuck me all the time la..if i really have the wrong..eh bro..just think what my position in? i cant away recently ..if u guys dun understand me..then just shut up and get off..i can tell u guys u r not really my close fren...u dun even know my style my characteristic..i can say that my really closed fren not more than 5 or 10 only..u ask miao la..ask kiat la..if i free will i say yes to come out? if i really busy..sry la..i really cant away..just stop it la..u not stupid ok? pls ...before u speak just think carefully 1st.. dun speak like brainless ...

even though my others fren also didnt sound on me..so..u guys think they not my fren? sry la..is just they more know about me..and u not..if really wanna keep relation with a fren..pls la..spend some time to know more about ur fren la..dun simply simply say those brainless word..

ehh..ask kiat la..if i free if i can even u call me at mid night i also will come out de..last time..he beg me to do something for him..for his grandpa birthday de..then the next day i have morning class..i also didn sound it..i help him even is midnight..i help him to that thing about 3 hours..from 12am till 3am..what i want to say is..if u guys know me..u will know my character..if i free i will come out..if not..sry..if u wanna to sound on me..pls..do more homework 1st..do more research on me..when u know more..u will know that u r wrong..

today..

2009-12-30T07:19:00.001-08:00

^^..yeahooo..finally almost 31th ady..waiting so long for this day..hhax..hope can enjoy it..end of the year of 2009..wish have a nice day..^^..

today...

2009-12-29T08:16:00.000-08:00

so sad..haiz..today 29th of dec..i miss the chance for the stella maris gathering..t.t..long time didnt meet with them ady..t.t fortunately they make a gathering today..but..i cant attend..cause i need to work on this month...arghh...shiitt...miss the chance..but..luckily..have 1 more gathering within the day on chinese new year..good..^^hahax..i wont absence this time..^^

today..

2009-12-21T07:08:00.001-08:00

erm..having a new start..^^.is good ..hmm...now i will pay more attention on her..i will treat u as good as i can..that i can promise to u..hope u too...

^^..

2009-12-21T07:08:00.000-08:00

erm..having a new start..^^.is good ..hmm...now i will pay attention on her^^

sad...

2009-12-20T08:52:00.000-08:00

just heard some news about my classmate..omg..sem 1 he ady give up his education..t.t.so sad to heard that..he really hardworking 1..and also improve alots..but..lastly he still give up..t.t..haiz..losing 1 fren ady..just finish a sem..we no longer being classmate..haiz..so sad....but..however..he didnt give up his life then that;s good news..he going to learn hairstylist..not bad ma..bro..just dun forget..we r always fren and u can do it ..u can do whatever thing other ppl cant do it..u r special..u have a unique face..just gambateh...wish u all the best..

today

2009-12-20T06:32:00.000-08:00

hmm..today same as usual..^^..tired bored hahax.but my life quite enrichment..^^..hhhax..so far okay ler..~~hmm...always b home at 11pm..so tired ady..haiz..no time go for play also..wanna plan going out with fren de..but..haiz..my holiday have been sacrifice..hhax..but..whatever la..have 1000 to use^^..xixi..so..planning 100 give mum..100 buy something..150 belanja family go eat..^^..xixi..left not that much only^^..for saving..xixi^^..everyday nothing special ..just normal life..

result coming out..

2009-12-19T09:19:00.000-08:00

after working when i b home i watching mulan..waoo..quite nice de...^^..hhax..then suddenly my fren asked me..eh..u got ur result ady? i say.erm..havent..then when i finish my movie..i go to my mailbox and check..ehh...my college send me aletter ady..so i open it..wahh...@.@..only.3.29..t.t..shitt...sienz la..i hope i can get 3.69 at least..but now..haiz..nvm la..get better when at sem 2..hope ca improve...t.t

Today...

2009-12-19T06:45:00.000-08:00

haiz..today busying about my work..cleaning stock packing stock arranging stock..hhax..so tired..so..what u guys doing today? hhax..haiz..brain keep thinking some rubbish..haiz..sad la..bored la..lonely la..and what else la..^^..hhax..today feel sleepy only..cause recently not enough sleeping..haiz...like my fren say..almost becoming a zombieeee....^^

Today...

2009-12-18T06:55:00.000-08:00

hmm..today when im free at work then i texting with fren..in the conversation i only know outside are heaving heavy rain..t.t..just feels like im in the cage..cant feel anything..if something happening outside im still blur blur..^^..haiz..recently always work work work..no rest and also cant rest..t.t..haiz..very tired ady..just dun 1 to touch everything dun 1 to go for any training..haiz..lazy lah..t.t...haiz..although still busying..but i still remember what happened yesterday..^^..maybe is just happened so not that fast to forget..^^..xixi..happy happy happy^^..

genting trip^^

2009-10-25T05:45:00.001-07:00

i have some feelings wanna to post on here...TT..^^...have happy and moody feel^^..hhax..erm..talks about my moody feel 1st..we have 15 ppl go to genting, half of them are couple..haiz...so..the couple group play themselves..and the single group also seperate into many group..so..all are playing ourselves..T.t..but..then..we also play till very happy...^^...although we are keep seperating..but..we also have to play together...happy..happy^^..hhahahx..3 days 2 night..hahx..we reach genting about 8++ pm in friday night..then we goes to starbucks and have drinks..then we killed time for indoor..after that..we back to hotel around 1am..then we play card..after that..we watch movie till 4..then we only sleep..^^..hhax..after that..in the next morning...hhax..we use the whole day to play at outdoor..^^but...when we play till very happy and fun..suddenly..what the hell..start raining..t.t...arghhh...we just play 4 to 5 games..then raining..haiz...no mood for it..t.t..then we go to have our lunch at kenny roger,,haiz...the service bad..food bad..everything bad...haiz..no 2nd time ady..t.t..after that..we continue to the themepark, luckily stoped rain ady..then ..we queue for the boat which shape like a pencil....very unlucky is..haiz..when we queue till almost our turn..then..suddenly rain heavily again..t.t..arghhh..omg...shitt....all no mood ady..then we have no choice..then we back to indoor to hang kai..^^..hhax.then..we go to have out dinner at mushroom farm..erm,..not very delicious and not too bad,^^..hhax..actually we go down by van..but then..after dinner..we choose to walk back to the themepark and play again..^^..hhax..i sat 4 times of the spaceshot..then 2 times of roller coaster...arghh...i feel that..my heart beat cant even slow down..^^..hhax..after that..we go play the turning cup..omg..i with a fren name ryen..hhax..we turn that cup till like a garsing^^..hhax...then when the 1st we play..i feel ok..but.. then..for the 2nd time..i play again..wahh..i beh tahan...i feel wanna to vomit...omg..is really too over..hhax..the guest all around us..keep laughing and watching us..hhax..is too funny^^..hhhax..then..afther that..we go to indoor..cause..about 10.20++pm ady..wannat to close ady..then some of my fren go to the ghost house...some of us sat on the staircase opposite the hunted house^^...hhax..then..after that..we go back and sleep^^..cause..we are ady bery super ultra tired^^..then..we back on sunday noon^^...long time didnt play with fren and over night ady^^...

To sheireen

2009-10-22T04:41:00.001-07:00

Fantasy范特西
-友情难找-

经过艰难的日子，不易的感情，
很快就要说分离，感觉就像会失去联络，
艰难得来的友情，就要分离，

眼泪就像山水流得这么汹涌，分离的感觉多么痛
但我们的心会牵连着直到永远，
在分离之前，我们曾有开心日子，
一点一滴都在心里，只要友情还在哪怕会分离，

还记得我们一起的日子，曾有过伤和乐，
虽然经历过伤痛，但是也有过快了，
只要坚持就不会悲伤，

还记得我们一起玩乐，雨也下的好大，
我们还在河边玩了，不知死活的我们，
深信着友情，日子在艰难危险我们也能渡过，

还记得我们一起的日子，曾有过担心和惊喜，
只要坚持只要在一起，不管遇到什么都欢喜，

太阳西落但会有东升的时候，
朋友分隔两地，还有见面机会，
分离在分离，再回去分离的地方，

眼泪就像山水流得这么汹涌，分离的感觉多么痛
但我们的心会牵连着直到永远，
在分离之前，我们曾有开心日子，
一点一滴都在心里，只要友情还在哪怕会分离。

new assignment...

2009-10-21T07:01:00.000-07:00

drawing...

2009-10-20T05:56:00.001-07:00

2009-10-05T09:44:00.001-07:00

have a look ya^^

2009-10-05T09:08:00.000-07:00

my assignment

2009-10-05T06:35:00.001-07:00

Cameron Trip

2009-09-21T03:27:00.000-07:00

Cameron Trip

2009-09-21T03:21:00.000-07:00

all pulling me to take photo together..t.t..omg..im a model..wuhaha^^

Cameron Trip

2009-09-21T03:19:00.000-07:00

see..see..see..the puppy so cute^^...

Cameron Trip

2009-09-21T03:15:00.000-07:00

...dunno what to say ady..^^upload those photo till wanan to die..

Cameron Trip

2009-09-21T03:12:00.000-07:00

see..those cactus so big...omg...t.t...can kill me man..t.t

Cameron Trip

2009-09-21T03:08:00.000-07:00

....when u step in the farm..u feel comfortable..so relax..^^

Cameron Trip

2009-09-21T03:05:00.000-07:00

Colourful flower...^^...

Cameron Trip

2009-09-21T03:00:00.001-07:00

Cactus farm..and also flower farm...^^..the flower so beautifull....XD

Cameron Trip

2009-09-21T03:00:00.000-07:00

Cactus farm..and also flower farm...^^..the flower so beautiful ....XD

Cameron Trip

2009-09-21T02:56:00.000-07:00

Yeahh......drink X.O.....wuahahx...Enjoy...Enjoy..

Cameron Trip

2009-09-21T02:52:00.000-07:00

pic take from the resort where i stay..Name..(Equatorial)...

Cameron Trip

2009-09-21T02:42:00.000-07:00

cameron trip photo...^^hmm..havent style my hair..t.t...look ugly...t.t

cameron trip

2009-09-21T00:55:00.000-07:00

Cameron and Ipoh Trip...some photo is taking at the ipoh..near my hometown..the wide green grass u saw is the (Padi)..^^

Partiality lo..

2009-08-20T01:40:00.000-07:00

Fuck...my mum so partiality...haiz..always think of my bro..today..actually i was going to celebrate my birthday with my fren de..then oh...suddenly mumum called..she said..eh..u come back imediately..shit..i tot what happen lo..who knows? she called me to wait the repiarman to fix the new air-condition to my bro's room..my bro 1 month onoly come back for 3 to 5 days.. then need to fix an air con there? why my mum dun want to fix the air con to my room?
lol..really unfair lo...haiz..NO mood...My birthday leh??can treat me abit better ma??Fxxx...

T.t...speechless..Something about my family..

2009-08-19T06:32:00.000-07:00

i dunno how to describe about it..haiz..actually my mum get psychotherapy since 11 year ago..but she always think that she cant been cure it..i almost give up to console my mum..she already give up herself..how we(my family) console her..she still same..cause she dun even try to step intront.or a single step..she always live in her castle...always say to her i will fell to cry..haiz...really no choice..she try to look for psychotist..but..the doctor doesnt help much..cause..my mum dun even wanna to try to step forward..always keep in her position..just stand at there..

My new look and my drawing..

2009-08-15T10:44:00.001-07:00

Hey,,,!!..harlow...erm..for my dear reader..^^...hahx..just let you see about my currently drawing assignment..although is just a simple thing..but..each drawing need take my 3 to 4 hours...haiz...to me..actually is tough..but..now..i feel more interest on it..hhax...and my recently new stupid look..^^cause i wearing cons and sunglasses..^^hohoho..

风暴下认识了你 - 杰识你

2009-08-12T09:12:00.000-07:00

每一天
每次我们都到这边
在这沙漠你不会感到寂寞
因为在这沙漠会遇见很多的刺激

为什么
你不会感到害怕是不是因为有我的陪伴
在一次我在那风暴里遇见了我心中的你
但是我还是抓不住你

你那迷人的眼睛已被你深深的吸引
可不可以再一次的和你一起
不被那狂大的风暴卷到别的世纪
再一次我们又被分离
可是这一次我不会放弃
就算我的生命里会遇到千万次的阻挡

你可以放心就算有多大的风暴我都能一次一次的穿越
因为我心里有你

每一天
没了你的日子
我都会感到害怕害怕那风暴从此消失
因为在这沙漠已变成了我的回忆
没了它就等于从没遇见你

再给多一次机会我
我不会在放手我会用我的能力来抓稳你的手
相信我因为我是你的全部

再一次的风暴也是开心的风暴
不会因为担心而忽略了这个宽大的沙漠
没有沙漠就没有风暴
风暴是最美的景色要是能困在风暴里也是一种幸福
在一次的经过也不会害怕
想想我还在你身边永远的保护你

aBout ME..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Going to operate..

2009-07-21T00:26:00.001-07:00

HEllow...Guys..Today 21st of july..i went to gleneagles hospital again..then i go check with another doctor..so..what's the doctor said and the doctor said at sentosa is same..they advice me to cut it..cause my gallbledder wall is really think..and a stone has found in fundus..its will happen cause of Chronic inflammation since 5 years ago till now..
hmm..im going to ward on this friday..24th of july..so..i will reach gleneagle at 7 am..and have an operation at 10 am..i will out of ward on this sat..means 25th..so..need to rest atlease 1 week..then i will be completely recover..

2009-07-12T20:25:00.001-07:00

Hmmm...My new college life is coming..t.t...feel abit nervous...t.t
hmm...can i catch up about my study? never touch art before..Hmm...need to met new guys again?...t.t...arghhhh...
by the way..i will try my hard to complete my study..no matter how hard isit..i believe that i still can hand over it...^^

MY FEELINGS.>>

2009-07-12T09:34:00.002-07:00

Hmmm...recently my life pass like so so so...meaningless..cause..everyday woke up..then just facing my laptop..and then play play play until night..then lepas tidur...this kind of life i feel bored and hated..i feel like im useless...actually my life can become more meaningful, but i just dun know how to cherish it..wasting my time...

why always feel like lazy..everyday think about tomorrow tomorrow..and tomorrow..i always help myself find a reason to postpone my thing..like i will said i still have time..i can finish it tomorrow..when i can change all my bad habit...t.t..

reason will always waiting u to use it .. is just see whether u wanna to accept it or not..if u can reject the reason maybe it will help u to fulfill ur ideal..@.@

For FIC

2009-07-12T04:50:00.000-07:00

Hi...~~...everyone ..when u here for view my blog and reading reading and reading..that means..hhax..Gotca.u r my friend..^^..huhuhuhu..Dun forget..im always ur lame king..the god of the lame..hhax..
.....
HMmmm..so..how about u all recently..did u guys well?? we already dismissed about 2 month..all r busying..studying..working..and playing..^^..HHxhX.and me..already been a "fei chai" 2 month...hohoho..

hmm..im still cant forget about that day..when we go a village for our holiday..that place is one of our FIC classmate...NAME..(Ah ni, Eunice, Eunice NG ......)hahx..when we stick together...i will warm..so happy..just wanna to go again and again..but..the time is pass like a rocket..fast than the fast and furious^^..hoho...

Guys...dun forget we r from FIC...one day had been FIC .we are longer to be FICmates..^^hoho...
so..when yii zhang and pei wen come back to k.l..we go out gather...^^..hoho...and hope eunice, wei foong, yii zhang, pei wen, poh ling, batman, and me..Hope they can have a new starting college live....dun forget that we had been best fren..Before is..now also same, in the future we r also best fren..^^.....

只要和你在一起 - 孙耀威 --> i love this song...^^

2009-07-12T03:13:00.001-07:00

每次奔波工作里也差点想气馁差些死去
有你攀山都有趣吃苦都多么脆轻松面对
流过似水岁月奋斗十年买戒指
才永远谨记你特殊位置没忘记彼此

能与你一起更艰难更在乎你
能与你一起那管财富赚不起
能与你一起我的残缺亦完美
能一起赢输都胜利
能一起才珍惜运气

抗拒一天很富有怕多一些引诱一班损友
叫你开心经已够爱几多都不够相当内疚
迎接各种挫败有错便和你告解
纯朴会比较做巨人愉快未为意好歹

能与你一起更艰难更在乎你
能与你一起哪管财富赚不起
能与你一起我的残缺亦完美
能一起赢输都胜利
能一起才珍惜运气

当有天身心灰飞惟恐明日会离开你

能与你一起半羹盐也是甜美
能与你一起最惊谁有日先死
能与你一起哪管和你被遗弃
捱得起旁观者妒忌
捱得起人生只为你

SmiLe..^.^

2009-07-12T00:15:00.000-07:00

“A SMILE costs nothing, but gives much. It enriches those who receive, without making poorer those who give. It takes but a moment, but the memory of it sometimes lasts forever. None is so rich or mighty that he can get along without it, and none is so poor but that he can be made rich by it. A smile creates happiness in the home, fosters good will in business, and is the countersign of friendship. It brings rest to the weary, cheer to the discouraged, sunshine to the sad, and is nature’s best antidote for trouble. Yet it cannot be bought, begged, borrowed, or stolen, for it is something that is of no value to anyone until it is given away. Some people are too tired to give you a smile. Give them one of yours, as none needs a smile so much as he who has no more to give.”

A smile is such a precious thing. So often used that we take it for granted. Look around; smiles are everywhere. From the most depressing depths of poverty to the fenced in lives of the wealthy, we all find something to smile about. A smile helps us display our feelings to the world. Feelings of love, joy, or just pure uncensored laughter; all put on display with a smile. The darkest of days; brightened by a simple “flexing” of seventeen muscle in the mouth. Smiles are crooked teeth, perfect teeth and everything in between. Rich or poor, black or white, boy or girl, everyone deserves a smile. Smiles all convey some type of emotion that is tangible and real. A joy that can be felt and almost held. A smile is as warm as an embrace but as simple as a sunrise. A flood of unbelievable emotion can come crashing down on you just from a simple curl of the lip.

Smiles can be one of the most romantic things in the world. A communication without words. An understanding of emotions and character. Even a smile of understanding gives you some of the greatest pleasures that can be imaginable. A smile reflects a feeling that is so universally understood that it is too hard to define. It is soft, knowing and as beautiful as a butterfly. A smile that is shared between lovers can be as calming as a lake or as exciting as a shooting star. The thought of it can make you complete or leave you desperately wanting. There is no greater feeling in this world than seeing a smile after a longing kiss and knowing that you can spread joy to so many people with such a simple gesture. You lose nothing, save maybe half a calorie but you gain a world of knowledge and understanding. Smiles complete you and make you feel whole. Without smiles there is nothing in life to look forward to.

A smile is like a time machine. It can bring you back to the days of your childhood, like the time your mom gave you ice cream when you fell off your bike and scrapped your knee.Remembering how the sun shone on your face and filled your soul with warmth and love. Laughing as you ate the cone from the bottom up while rivers of ice cream flowed down your face. Or the time at summer camp where you met your first love. It will fill you with so much raw emotion that you just wanna scream out to the world that life is good. Sometimes a smile from a close friend will make you break down and cry or just burst out into hysterical laughter. Smiles are contagious. They make a complete stranger sitting next to you want to smile. Just try it some time, smile at a stranger and see the reaction you get. Remember, some of the greatest of friends were once strangers that shared a smile.

Smiles can make your worst imaginable day into something that is bearable. It is a need to communicate understanding and sympathy. Words over a telephone line, no matter how eloquent and beautiful cannot convey the same feelings as a honest smile. There is nothing that can compare to actually seeing a smile, knowing that someone understands you and all you pain. Its that tingly feeling that you get up and down your spine when you receive a smile that makes you want to return that feeling tenfold. It will mend deep emotional scars and give hope to the desperate. It is the single greatest gift that can be given and the purest form of joy that can be expressed. Why do you think that people smile when they have their photo taken? Its to capture a happy moment. A moment that can be looked back upon during a day of hopelessness and despair so that you can forget your worries. A way of saying, “Hey, that was one of the best days in my life!”. Its a way to block out all the negatives and reflect on all the positives. An extension of the soul that is so easy, so right and so pure that anyone can do it and no one can deny it. There we were, three of the best friends that God had ever slapped together for some unknown reason.