2011 2011

i really dunno whats wrong with me...all my friend gone 1 by 1..am i that so fuck up or so disgusts to be friend with? what happen to u all? why every1 wanna abandon me and boycott me..? finally i know that im choose to go oversea is not the wrong choice..maybe will find my new way instead of staying here..well..i wont hate u all, i will wish u all good luck..真的是没有东西或人值得让我留念!

13/11/11

LOLz...hahx...surpriseeeee :) hhax..long time didnt on my blog:)..updating now..xixi..
i used to love blogging.. but now..hhax..feels like not that active anymore. cause what? hahah..i duno..just being busy this 2 year. and slower n slower i lost my motivation to blogging ...well..now im back..but not go for everyday anymore..just feeling wanan to blogging today. thats it..

hmmm..my life? hoho..ntg special..just tired bout grabbing myself into a blackhole../ u can meant it as grab a hole n grave myself..hhax,.
hmmm..study? nope..still going on..graduate soon.. and yup..cont. study again...but might not in malaysia..hhax..
hmmm..socialize? nope..getting lesser n lesser friend's now...hhax..well..is not im weak on socialize ..but just dun like to feel it that way..however, i still having my good bro.beside me :) is not that important having any more..depends on the friendship :)
hmm...something thats it...ntg so happening in mylife..hhax...

good luck everyone..a good blast for you all

1/9/2011

i think i should stop thinking about have a chance to be with her..impossible ..i should be single for the rest of my life..for my own good and for everyone that may be with me...should stop thinking that i need to have a relationship..hardworking for my future, money is much more important than everything.. with alots of money i will live happy than having a relationship..i rather choose without love and happiness. i choose become rich..more secure if im rich.. but not poor and with everything..useless!!!!!!!!..is not realistic..as i say a brand new day will start on today..i will totally change my mind set..fuck u jazz...and im JAZZ for now...

1/9/2011

knowing you is my pleasure, knowing you is my honor, knowing you is my everything. didnt expect for future and everything, just wanna a simple life with you. is my fault to argue with you, sorry. but i love you. wont giving you up, until the day u disappear in mylife. but i hope wouldnt have this day arrived. just keep being this complicated relationship with you..im happy for all of the thing that u do for me and the thing that you try to do for me as well. a simple 3 words i really need to tell you, which is I LOVE YOU. :)

dunno what to say.

jazz- fuck urself..why r u so stupid so fucktard..ur stupid attitude is so annoying..can u just change it..always create trouble for someone always create the problem..what do u want? somemore u r so emotional. can u stop it? pls la wei..why do u want me to fuck u every time..pls la..change it ok..no one will like this attitude de..include urself..u doesnt like this also right..change it pls..

28/6/2011

hmmm...tuesday...@.@...ntg special, but to me im satisfied to having this kind of life..although do ntg for the whole day, finding my love 1 to have lunch and dinner everyday is the most happiest thing to me. but the fucking assignment make me worry bout it..arghh..cant even focus or spend sometime for it..i really wanna die...t.t..IDUN1 to retake ahhh..t.t...fuck....hmmm..2 weeks more..havent done anything..JAZZ..what the fuck is u doing..???plssssszzzzz la...stay focus.....AMEN...!!!...

26 june 2011

hmmpp...@.@..shit.nearly exam, dunno what to do ..@.@..feels like a lots of thing havent done yet.. hmmpp..but is ok..everything will be fine cause she's around me. i feel relax and comfort. although something happen on yesterday, but i know what should do and what shouldnt do..we need sometime to get all of this done la..however a year promises, i will try my best of the best to make you happy.

14 june 2011

10 more day consider we have been together for a month.and this few weeks im happy to be with her. although quite fast to fall in love to her, sounds unbelievable, but is true. i really love her.我是一个对感情很认真很快爱上也很快投入感情的人. our relationship is kind of complicated. but nvm, we are happy for now. no one knows what will happen in the next, being happy is the 1st priority. suddenly today i have a thought, i scared she wont accept this thought. but atlast i still discuss with her bout this. i said, how about we being like this for a year, In the presence of give yourself a chance and give me a chance too. and she reply yes i do. in that moment im fucking happy and feel happiness. i wont regret to know u and love u. i wont lie to u for sure, i will never lie to u. promise is the promise.time will prove everything.

My angel..

the day that i met her is 21 of april 2011. kind of weird and flower heart feels. but seriously im not that kind of people. why i said weird and flower itis because the day i met another girl is on 21st of april. im fall in love to this girl, but at last i found out that im falling in love to this angel. and the another girl is just confusing and kind of desperate in love. but now i found out i do really love this angel.she r the most caring girl which i met. she r most active girl that i met and the best forever. the day when i confess to her is 24th of may. she r so beautiful, Not just her heart or the appearance of she looks like. she is so pretty so good. today is 12 of june. i met her not more than 2 month. but i ady crazy in love to her. i dun mind to do anything even everything for her. i just love her so much. i have no expect any return, even i know we have no happy ending, but i still hope that we will have this day. the day we love each other. i know u just fucking love ur ex. but i will wait til the day that i can fully replace him. i know i can. i know just need some time. i know is the timing not good. just hope u happy forever, and happy and happy forever. final wish is wish u happy everyday. just stay happy happy happy and happy.

Thx for everyone who visit my blog.

im not a good blogger and im not often update my blog. today i just sign in and saw my beloved frens n visitor left some comment to me..is kind of surprise..thx for u guys support and caring..thx alots.. wish u all happy forever and smile always ya..a BIG BIG smile to u all :)..

14/5/2010

in the midnight of friday, but today consider sat ady..^^..hahax..sitting at mcd..ntg to do..just feel like wanna to come out..then come out lo..@.@..i like to chat tot myself..hahx...other ppl sure think that im crazy..ya..i am crazy...hahax..~~..cause too boring ah..xixi..LOL..stupid jazz..really stupid..wahkaka...


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ok..stop nonsense..back to the topic..i hate ppl like to create rumors... hate it..why ppl like to say something that is not true, something that is nonsense without any benefit to itself? haiz..anything can be happen..the world is so 'dark'..why i can live in a peaceful place? with ppl who r kind.@.@..

12/5/2011

@.@..hmm..ntg special ..just feel like wanna to write blog only..^^..when i can get a group of english communicate frens?just wish that i have a group frens..@.@..i just crazy in english...hahx..love english so much..mylife= english..hahx..joke..although not a joke..but is a joke..^^..seriously.!!..hhahx..

today- 9/5/2011

@.@..ntg happen and nothing further is going on..just same as usual, texting someone and thats all. @.@...as i posted on my fb..''i dunno when is the day come and dunno when its end..just stay calm to wait the day arrive''. while waiting there is ntg that i can do..besides wait just wait..XD..hahx..i know what it type is kind of rubbish..XD..but who cares..im enjoy..stop fucking me and said dun post stupid status on wall..now im not..im posting my blog..so shut ur bloody mouth. i dun 1 to hear anymore..i do what i like..

18/3/2011

hmm...sometimes i really cant sense something. my sense is quite obtuse, or somehow sense wrong thing. erm..what i mean is i keep catching wrong feels by someone. but however, is a good start la. i will try to be patience and dun walk too fast. be stable and try to take chance..@.@..im bluring now..dunno what to say about it. she is quite friendly, and this time i have a feel again, but dunno am i feels right. hope this time have a good ending.
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Amen!

LOVE.

..after saw this movie i just know my love is cant compare with the real love. <单身男女〉 the story talk about 2 boys loving a girl in the same time. 2 of them using alots of idea to make this girl happy. a guy very rich and with flower heart, who the 1 the girl love the most, but the girl doesnt wanna to be with this guy, cause the girl thought she can find a guy that wont ever guilty to her. in the same time the other guy appear. he also loving this girl many years ago, and he the 1 who keep cheer her up behind it. he is a so nice guy and give every care to her. this is a love story, is very touched story. the idea the action they took, let me feel happy and joyful, is very touched. we should learn something from this 2 guy.

Confusing...

hmmm..O.o..feeling like fall in love with some one, but feels like we have a distance. i dunno are we close, when i think deeply, definitely we r not close. just call once awhile, mesg once awhile, mostly is chatting on msn,or fb. sometimes when heard she said emoing , or up-sad, i feels like a knife inserted into my chest.i will followed unhappily..however, i didnt think too much, just be as usually fren, cause i know that well, is not gona we work with me and she. just hope she r happy, although im just a passing guy or a man that can accompany her, and im satisfy with that.

we should stand up for ur own right to feel your pain.XD

“People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great love is, but that's bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they're afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they're wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It's all in how you carry it. That's what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you're letting society destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to feel your pain.”

fucking emo moody script..DUN fuck see this blog..

haiz..here again..just wanna post some stupid comment over my blog..+ they wont come here to see also..quite free to write anything here...fuck them..i dunno who r them i dunno what they said..i duno what they want..just fuck them..all of them..i just feel i have no mood to go college at all...just wanna speed up my speed to graduate...as fast as possible..i wont go turn my head anymore..just leave all of them behind..i wont care wont ask wont care anymore..what kind of person i am? let u all to play to judge like stupid to fool around? sorry la..you all doesnt know much about me..so what ? for the pass 1 and a half year..rubbish la..u dunno who am i ..u dunno my characteristic at all..fuck you all..is not important that who am i to u all is important that who i am, know what im doing that;s enuf. fuck hell ya..

damn u all la...

recently i get alot of complain behind me...haiz...i can feel something also..dunno what happen also..why suka suka at belakang orang cakap hal yang buruk? i have ntg wrong..but i think something wrong to u all lo...haiz...girl really is 8 poh lo...~.~..so sad la..after heard this..damn hurt...i didnt do anything wrong didnt speak something that hurt u all..but why leH? dun so childish la..a branch of kiddo.

my quotes..XD

1)如果回到从前，你会做什么？我还是会走回一样的道路，但是这次不同，把走过的道路，把它走宽些，好让后面的人好走!

2)who care you, you are nobody but you are somebody. no 1 care you, but im here. im the 1 who willing spend my time to care about you. so..pls smile..XD : ) the world will change if you reconsider who am i..XD

3)do you recognize the road that you had passed thru?
do you remember who you had talked with?
do you remember the last hand that u holding with?
pls do remember everything in ur life. is valuable memory.

4)雨从天而降，嘀嗒嘀嗒的打在路上，散处的水花，真是好看呐！虽然只是普通的雨，但，当你细心的看，它并不平凡，因为当你觉得它不平凡的那一刻，那么你就走到了另一个境界！别人不知，只有你能察觉!

5)a hurricane will arrive in every moment, when you dun appreciate what you have now, you will be nothing, no one will know when is the next hurricane arrived. pls do appreciate and cherish it.. : )